Lately

You see I don't tell people a lot of things happened in my Life. I kept it all to myself, talking mentally over and over again keeping it inside. And I just pour it all here in this blog and wished the ones would read it and understand it. 

To my parents: 

I already hate it that I'm short, but I'm starting to love myself to accept myself, why do you try so hard to make me taller? I already did everything I can, but you guys kept expecting me to grow taller.. keep saying, teasing, It's mentally killing me, wait, no, It's killing me already .. literally, I jumped, played basketball, drank milk at least every single day for a long time and clearly that didn't work. I was born this way, why can't you just accept me the way I am. 

To my friends:

I'm sorry I didn't tell you all the crap I'm going through because I didn't know who I was suppose to tell.. I forget, I'm lazy I won't go to a person and pour out my feelings, people always find me, I don't find people..

It always been like that. And sometimes when they said " find me if you got any problem at all" 

I won't even if I said I will, cause when I have a problem, my hands struggles not to text anyone, my hearts says maybe it's not a good time, or I'm annoying someone or disturb them.

To everyone who feels what I feel :

Stop being so insecure, you're not alone , you never are alone! 

Find someone pour out everything, be fearless :) Jump then fall, 

you'll stand up again and you will be just fine :)

I fell for someone I shouldn't fell for, It's not wrong to like someone :) 

It's normal for humans so stop stressing out, Just live life It won't last forever.

Go with the flow :)

No, no one is invisible because  if you were you'd be a superhero and you'd have to keep it quiet

but lately been feeling quite left out, unnoticeable, evanesce 

ev·a·nesce

   [ev-uh-nes, ev-uh-nes]  Show IPA

verb (used without object), -nesced, -nesc·ing.

to disappear gradually; vanish; fade away. 

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Today, I look at someone, watching them and thinking "whoa he must have gone through a lot !"
I mean he who shall not be named XD
Had lost someone dearest , had lost a lover
had been broken to pieces many times and I wondered how can he survive all that?
how can he still live.. I mean I got problems of my own and I felt like killing myself sometimes, everyone feels that way but what made him stay strong till this very day.
* mind blown *
Life is surely tough mate, but I'm very sure we all have something to live for.
I live for someone way high up there straight into the sky.
it's tough to stay strong and sometimes it's so easy to give up 
but think it is worth giving up? 
:)

Sometimes I need someone right here with me not so far away..

It's Life still a beautiful fight?

yeap, it still is