I''m just gonna say it. I've been really sad. Like knowing it's December knowing I can't celebrate Christmas cause of my family religion, knowing that friends are hanging out without me, knowing that I'm all alone on Christmas night.. yeap lonely here. I want to like move out go somewhere far away from here. Meet new people, old ones aren't talking to me anymore.. but I can't I'm stuck here in this cruel world. Sometimes I just don't want to live anymore, it's crazy I rather have cancer or just save someone's life. I want those who are starving to eat my food, have my life.. but I can't. I have to live it or just simply exist. Sometimes I wonder why do I have this family? Why was I born? Did I choose to live? of course I didn't God did. Someone who play a important role of my family like my grandma said your dad is useless, YOUR WHOLE FAMILY IS USELESS, I mean how can you even accept it? But my mom said " get used to it" I said " I can't: and I won't". I want to make a change when I can, like when I'm older I mean I can't do anything now. I'll work hard become who I wanna be, but right now I just want to enjoy life just being grateful for what I have now.

Even though my heart is breaking but that's okay.

"Maybe there’s something you’re afraid to say, or someone you’re afraid to love, or somewhere you’re afraid to go. It’s gonna hurt. It’s gonna hurt because it matters.”

—	John Green

if you’ve been having a bad day

here’s a hedgehog with a strawberry on its head

even if you haven’t been having a bad day

here’s something to make your day better

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