Invisible walls~

fake laughters 

fake smiles

can't anyone see that I'm crying out loud?

Recently I had these invisible walls that surround me, yea I'm not really opening up to anyone, yeap I'm lying to myself,

I'm not gonna get many friends, but I had a lot of friends

just not the real ones

you know the ones that are there when you're in trouble..

I don't tell people how I really feel now days cause either the reply was " mmm... or whatever" 

ouch..

so yea, and cause of some people would love to see you're having a bad day , 

I rather tell them I'm okay or I'm fine with a smile, 

but actually I wanna say I'm sick and tired people treating me like that, or should I say  not really anyone asked me " how are you ?"

The only reason I don't respond truthfully when someone asks me what's wrong is because I know that most of the time people don't care about my problems and they just want to know what's going on because it satisfies them to know everything that goes on with everyone.

I never built these walls to keep people out.

 I built them to see who cares enough

 to take the time to knock them down.