Why?

Well,
i didn't saw you for 5 days
or communicate
Suddenly,
you appear
and passing by .....
I when to the Canteen,
and talk with Max..
not exactly talk
I 'm having a very bad sore throat....
*speechless*

but then,
i saw you ..
as always you was smiling
(but totally heart broken inside )
i stare at you
i can't believe it
i kept staring hehe..
Enice asked me to stop or she will poke my eye
(she didn't mean it)
So,
as i kept staring
I was in gazed
then,
i felt a slight pain ....
the pain i had before
it was punching through my Heart hardly
why it's still exist??? (the pain)
i thought everything was OVER,
i thought i let go of you,
WHY?

why does this feeling is still existed??
inside my heart
......................................
once again
broken and confuse

P/s: EXAM!!!
haha weird i 'm still calm....and cool....