All in all

Today was SURREAL. Okay, I need to calm down because I'm so excited to share this with you. I had to face a few situations that I can't perform well in today; listening to someone talk without interrupting them every few minutes, losing in a sports game, being patient with my brother.

I rarely meet someone acquainted that's willing to share their deepest thoughts and feelings and today I had the chance to meet that person, That person is my colleague. She was driving me to a game of badminton with other colleagues, There was a massive jam, a 5 minute drive turned into an half and hour drive. She talked about her first love and her admirers. I listened to her attentively. The great thing was how she was able to relate how horrible my first love treated me because no one has reacted the way she did. 

Another thing was, I am a very competitive person, it's bad how I can't face losing to someone, I couldn't control the voices in my head that whispers ' I can't lose.' I'm really against this thought of mine, so I kept telling myself, if you lose, learn why you lose, do not feel defeated, feel encourage to learn and try again. 

Lastly, I learned how to deal with someone selfish, which is my little brother. He only do things for himself and never helps anyone voluntarily. There was one day where I told him I would wash his school shoes in exchange for him cleaning my cat and helping it wear a diaper ( my cat suffers from paralysis from hip to legs) because I would come back late, unable to care for it. Today, my brother has been helping me clean my cat and I'm so touched by his kindness and I only helped him once. How to deal with a selfish person? Don't be selfish yourself.

All in all, I've learned to focus on the good things that happened today and not dwell on negative feelings that brings a bitter heart